I remember, for awhile there, I was pretty good at blogging. Meaning that I found time to blog regularly, and I think that I wrote things well. I mean, at one point, I was contacted by the web manager of our denominational publication's website because she liked my blog, had used it as an example to her staff members as a blog that was well done, and she asked if I'd be willing to write something for the website. Of course, that also happened to be right about the time I was getting ready to transition from internship to my senior year back at seminary, and so I had other things on my mind and never got around to doing anything with that offer.
I even was talking with a friend who said she used to read my blog all the time, and how I was a good writer and she loved to read my stuff. But then she said she hasn't in a long time now. I know that part of that is her and her life changes and whatnot... but I think a part of that is that I haven't written anything worth reading here in quite some time. Now, don't feel the need to leave comments to bolster my self-esteem or encourage me. I don't need that. I'm not down on myself about it, or depressed that my blogging skill has deteriorated. I'm just being realistic and honest.
I think part of that has to do with being unsure about what to blog about in my current situation. I mean, at seminary and on internship, I would blog about things that happened, people I encountered, situations that were unfolding, parties I threw (of course, then I was publically reprimanded on another blog about my deviant and immoral behavior). Being an associate pastor in a relatively small town, I have to watch what I say. You never know what's going to get back to whoever, even if I attempt to be anonymous. Which I don't think I do a very good job at, anyway.
But, yeah. My blog hasn't been "must read" material, lately. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if I lost most of my regular readers. I know that there are a few of you who check in with some regularity. Mainly because you leave comments wondering where I've been, or ask how you're supposed to be entertained when I don't write anything.
But, if you think about it, I started this blog (in it's previous form) the spring before I went to internship, which would have been 2003. It is now 2008. This blog has been alive (if sometimes just barely) for FIVE years. That is quite some time. That is almost longer than I've EVER lived anywhere. That's longer than I was in college, and the same amount of time that it took me to get through seminary. It's almost 1/6th of my life. It's amazing that it has kept my attention that long. I'm often prone to fits of enthusiasm about things, which last for a short time before I'm on to something else. So that I've managed to maintain a blog for 5 years, in any shape or form or with any regularity, is pretty substantial for me. I guess it shows that this blog has been important to me, and still continues to be.
So I just need to be better about upkeep, I guess. I need to motivate myself to write more. Maybe, in the act of writing, I'll be inspired to write more. Who knows?!?